Drained

Have you ever been so tired, so very tired that you just want to let everything go and just shut yourself up all over? Well i am feeling kinda so right now. It doesn't just happens like that to people, they often grow tired after a long duration of crap being thrown at them. So tired that you just want to let all these baggage off and just shut the world up. Most people that i know grow tired the most when they are in a relationship, especially with someone whom can never give them the sense of ease and comfort that they need to feel secure. Then eventually either side will grow tired, and they will seek out their best buddies and ask for advice. Well, the question to ask yourself is, Are you tired? Tired enough to let go?. Many would tell you no but deep down they know, that eventually you will need to let go because the relationship wouldn't work out. This does not apply to all relationships as i believe that working it out and staying strong together will make things work. However if its not the destined one then no matter how much you want things to work out, it won't. She dashed my hopes again today, but still i choose to hold on. In the end when she apologized to me, i felt no emotions coming from the words. She is just merely apologizing to compromise me, make me feel like she is sorry and all for what she has done. But in truth, she isn't... Well a fool i am indeed for trying to hold on and believing that things can work out.... A fool indeed... I don't know, maybe i am just not tired enough, feels that i lost everything because of her... my friends, my world, my happiness is all based on her. A fool i am.... Never based your whole world on one person, sometimes that becomes the most painful thing to you if you want to find your world back.
Words that hold no meaning anymore....